I’ve been drinking too much lately. I start to ramble and write things down. Mainly things about her.
It’s sad when you have no one there for you. All you do is talk to yourself and become your own friend.
At the end of the night you want to shoot yourself just to get some sleep.
Well when you talk to yourself, you feel secure because you know that you’re not going to share anything with anyone and have to feel so judged. Certain topics just make me feel too weak to have a normal conversation because I just feel too high maintenance and people will get annoyed with me